same boy you’ve always known

I know you’re out there
and I want you to think
good of me,
but in recent years
time hasn’t been
what it promised to be,
you taught me all
about the good and the bad
when you yourself weren’t sure,
and despite all evidence
to the contrary
my life isn’t as pure

and now I’ve left
your ways, and grown
into something, of my own
I know how you feel
but I’m not the same
boy, you’ve always known.

I know you’re out there

and maybe even

wondering what went wrong,

although it might be true

but we are right

where, we actually belong,

the times we spent

doodling our lives

on the dried canvas of dead leaves,

love me or not

but it wasn’t something

that was meant to be

and now I’ve left

your side, and grown

into something of my own,

you might feel betrayed

but i’m not the same

friend, you’ve always known.

time and space.

is this the only way out?
he teared up and looked up above
i tried to hold back his memories
but they flew away along with his love

don’t worry about losing
i held his face in me and let him be
if it happens it happens
someday it will be you and me

all along this time and space
we will find him through night and day
even when we are six feet under
our love will stand brave, and
forever, stay.

smile please.

i met them two
ladies, at 4th and Brannan.

their face had given up
on wrinkles.
their hair was warm as
the lord’s blessing
any given Sunday.
and colored as bright as
Lucifer’s face.
their bent back pointed
towards the future
of us.
all of us.

one of them had colored
dotted socks on.
maybe they matched.
or that was the trick?
the other one had the
sleight of the bluest southern skies.

they were both out
and about at an AM in the morning
when you’d still be regretting
the existence of your loneliness
or awkwardness of last night
in your dreams.

them?

i’ve never seen a smile so contagious.

vacuum.

my heart has a place that is
never going to be filled.

you have that too.

and you will know it.

during your worst time,
and especially
during your best times

you will know
more than ever.

and we will together wait
and
wait

in that space.

that’s all we can do.

One life

so many to explore
so little time
so many to taste,
with only one life.

Coffee and rain

the smell of coffee and rain,
takes me back
it’s all white and black,
to the times simpler and sane.

i’ll be the last one leavin’,
before you close the door
& can’t scream no more,
i’ll lick your inside,
slowly sippin’,

like my hot black coffee
on a gray rainy evenin’.

Change

I’m not
scared
of getting hurt and
moving on.

I’m scared of staying at one place
and being the same.

forever.

Just a few moments

I wanted to
spend some time
with the universe,
the stars and
moonlight.

hear their stories
and animate those
words to
every soul I lay
my eyes upon.

but there was
this fear of
moving in that direction
for I may lose
what I have now
and not find anything
except loneliness.

I took
that forbidden path anyway
and realized, all
I wanted
is to drag the time
out for
a few moments.

Skill vs Talent

Skill is something you can learn.

All it takes is time.
That’s it.

Nothing more.
But more important, nothing less.

But I don’t know how you define talent.

Something you are born with? I don’t believe that.
Everyone starts the same.

But I do believe that anything that matters is a skill. Not talent.

If one person is able to put in the time and learn it, if that person is able to use effort and get good at it, it’s a skill.

And that’s why I like skill.

It’s incredibly empowering and opens up opportunities for you.

So what are you going to learn next?

Nothing ever grew

she spent her time
building walls
around her
beautiful garden,
never really
taking the time out
to water the
exotic
flowers, and
fruits, and
bushes and thorns.

and while she
sat there in her
freedom

she looked around her
and wondered

why nothing ever
grew.