same boy you’ve always known

I know you’re out there
and I want you to think
good of me,
but in recent years
time hasn’t been
what it promised to be,
you taught me all
about the good and the bad
when you yourself weren’t sure,
and despite all evidence
to the contrary
my life isn’t as pure

and now I’ve left
your ways, and grown
into something, of my own
I know how you feel
but I’m not the same
boy, you’ve always known.

I know you’re out there

and maybe even

wondering what went wrong,

although it might be true

but we are right

where, we actually belong,

the times we spent

doodling our lives

on the dried canvas of dead leaves,

love me or not

but it wasn’t something

that was meant to be

and now I’ve left

your side, and grown

into something of my own,

you might feel betrayed

but i’m not the same

friend, you’ve always known.

floored.

it wasn’t the first time

i got lost in her hair

but the wind paused

and the sky looked over

this time

looked over me to see

if i was doing fine

and i told him

i didn’t even see him

walking through the door

i never felt him

putting his foot down

on my carpeted floor

and no it’s not that

i don’t love him as much

as i did before

it’s just that my

existence was clouded by

her hair and i couldn’t help

but want more.

a place where we go.

i saw the sun beating down
over the rooftops
and i watched the river flow
i stood at the watchtower
and wondered
where the currents go

and as the river flowed
and the wind blew
it didn’t matter which way
as long as it knew

and people disagreed with others
and words tasted like lies
others drowned in the blues
of those who couldn’t say goodbye

and the fog kissed the ocean
under the bridge
and the currents laid low
and i stood at the watchtower
and wondered
where people go.