wild.

hey sunshine

dare to look me right
in the eyes
pay your dues

and
let your feet run wild.

Sweater weather

the bluebonnets tells me
this is when i win
your smile can
make me fly.

sadly it’s nothing new
i’ve in past seen these views
it’s possible, you’ve just
got me high.

and your eyes
say more than our
names spelled together,
your breath’s warmer
than our bedroom sport we play
in sweater weather.

i love the way
you sing your song at night
your music and
your voice
are kisses from inside

I guess that’s what
I need, and
that’s what you
hide.

Stories – Day 3 – It’s a process

​I like the way you started. A book in process. Just write whatever comes in your mind, and have them organized later. For me, I have pieces here and there in my computer, in my notebooks. I finally put all the digital pieces in the same file, but paper pieces… I have to find. Thank you for following my blog. My daughter just called and wanted to do a joint publication of a book. We have to think of a format. Anyway, I’m thinking as I am writing to you. How about that? Let’s check on each other’s progress and hopefully see each other’s books in the market.

It’s simple, not easy

You might have an ambitious goal, and you clearly know what you need to do to achieve it, but…

You are just not doing it.

Most of us are like this.

And by us, I mean myself.

It’s just excuse, after excuse, after excuse, with a little fear of failure mixed in to make things explainable to others.

This really kills me from inside, because I know, more often than not, everyone of us could accomplish so much more if we just cut our bullshit excuses and put in the work.

If you were looking for someone to serve you some warm and fuzzy motivational words, go somewhere else. Because I’m not writing this for 99% of you who will read it, get high off motivation, and do nothing about it making zero progress.

I’m writing this for 1% of you who I can actually impact. And that includes myself too. For people who are truly willing to make sacrifices and do whatever it takes to turn their dreams into reality.

First of all, take a cold hard look in the mirror. Look yourself in the eyes, and say: “Stop fucking around.”

Because here’s the thing.

If you know what your dream is, and you know how to get it, and you still haven’t made any progress, then you’re not trying hard enough.

Simple.

This is not meant to make you feel bad. It’s supposed to kick you in the balls.

Seriously, if you want to something, go out and fucking get it.

So decide right now: Do you really, really want it? That one thing?
Yes?

Then start fucking working towards it right this second.

Under the stars, naked

Thank you for reading my madness.

I never expected
so many of you to read,
it is just madness
after all,
but that’s okay,

we are all a little mad and a bit crazy.

And I’ve always liked the mad ones

– for we are the ones who talk in riddles and smile when we do,
for we know the world makes more sense to us that way –

so, if you’re reading this somewhere in the world,
smiling,
I do hope that one day we meet.

And when we do,
let’s decide that no matter
where we are in the world,

we will find a place to light a fire,
on a beach,
or somewhere in the woods
where you can still see the stars

– and we will get cheap drinks,
the cheaper the better,
and we will play old tunes,
and laugh about the world –

and as the sun comes up
we will run,
naked,

as the stars call us back,
their children,
their mad children coming home.

let’s agree to that
and I hope
to see you soon.

magic

i knew
there was something coming
it had to be
it was
meant to be
i could sense it
so did
everyone sitting around
the open place
charmed by
those beautiful instruments
surrounded
by people from
around the world
living life
on that wonderful
irish land.

or maybe not.

maybe they didn’t
sense that coming
but it was
all over the place
in every motivated breath
you take
in every puff of smoke
that intimidates you
right in your eyes
hits your
tipsy soul
and makes you wonder
what it will be like
when it hits you
nothing like
you’ve been having
since all night now.

maybe nobody imagined
or ever wondered
but i was waiting
among the cheering people
for that exact moment.

and then it came
everything
decided to stood by
glances were exchanged
i felt them
inhaling the deep breath
this was calm
before the storm
and then suddenly
the next moment
it was all
magic.

Austin

Austin feels a little bit like Aston Martin, which is the type of car James Bond would drive.

Keep it weird!

Be Like That!

Wake up every day in a new place,

Breathing in the exotic scents,

Each day will be my favorite,

Seeing the sunrise and its essence,

Camping in the desert with old friends,

Climbing up the snow-covered peaks,

Making the way through running waters,

I wish that would be me…

If I could be like that,

I’d give anything for that,

No matter where it would take me,

Wish I could be like that…

Taste every food on the map,

Strike every chord and run to the touchdown,

Hit it hard until we go up,

Who cares if we ever come down!

Be with the love of my life,

Every evening is a new date,

Then I can be perfectly sure,

For next day I’ll surely wait…

If I could be like that,

I’d give anything for that,

No matter where it would lead me,

If only I could be like that…

Always travelling

Whenever I took the path unknown,

It lead me to lots of unexpected things,

Sometimes there’s company, most of the times alone,

It took me a step ahead on its wings,

Flying all the way and through,

My heart knew it was true,

My mind told me to wait,

Why are you so afraid?

Just take the road and follow the leaves,

That once loved the lush green trees,

Now they lead to the pit of dark,

Not aware of the light behind that arc,

Though the spirit turns me down,

Though the heart sinks and frown,

I know it’ll turn around someday,

Still believe it’s worth the wait…

Why I couldn’t give SAT??

Spent more than10  hours in a bus travelling to 2 different states in a journey which started at around 6 PM and ended at around 4 AM. Felt and fought the chilling waves of the early morning. No sleep for more than 24 hours. Reached the examination center as early as possible. Yet, I couldn’t give SAT. For real? Yes! But why? Lets hear the story of a journey then…

Me and my friend were all set to give SAT on 4th Nov. But why did we want to give SAT? Its because we both shared a common dream of attending an Ivy-League School. So SAT was the option, and we began our journey to explore it. First, we figured out how to get to the destination. We had to take a bus, then change it for the another one at the midnight, and that probably meant no sleep at all before the examination night! So we took the bus at 6 PM, reached the mid-stop destination at around 11 PM. And yes, it was getting colder and colder as the hours flew by. Maybe I felt a little more colder because of the exam the next day. You know students freak out a lot before the Big-Day! But I’m not one of them. Still it was very cold 😉

The 2nd bus started the journey at around 11:30 PM. We expected to reach our destination at around 2 in the morning. But I guess we were very very wrong! It was all foggy, and you can imagine the speed of the bus, very slow. It was a horrifying image of a vehicle travelling alone in the dark, coming out of nowhere and going to the same place! We stopped at least 2 times to eat and drink (not the bad drinks!). When at last we reached our destination at  4 in the morning, we were like “OMG, I’m too sleepy!”.

Somehow I got my 2 hours (not exactly!) of sleep and then got ready for the SAT, the next hurdle to be crossed off from my list! truth to be told, I was excited, not frightened, and quite fresh after the tire-some journey. We collected all our documents and the admit card and were completely set to make a mark in the exam. So my high hopes, I went into the center, got all my documents checked, and then was called in the office!

I didn’t know then what was going on, but later I found out I was not alone. There were around 6 students with me, including my friend, and the issue was told to us then. “All you guys and girls don’t have your passports with you, so you’re not allowed to give SAT“, the announcement was made, and I was like “WTF!” It was written on the admit card that you have to bring your Identification along with you, and I’ve everything, but why passport?

Then it was made clear. “The Indians and Pakistani students have to bring their passports for their ID verification. Nothing else will work.” Then I understood. The Collegeboard has some set of rules for the whole world, and some additional rules for the Indians and the Pakistanis. First, their extra fees which is added to the common fee+international fee. So the fees looks like: Common fee+International Fee+Fee for being from India, Isn’t it funny! And then the passport rule, ONLY PASSPORT WILL WORK, nothing else.

So that’s why I couldn’t give my SAT and was kindly asked to go out of the center after such a journey. But you know I have a wish to go to Ivy-League School, so I’m giving the SAT on 28th Jan next year, with much better preparation. And this time, I also have my passport ready :), so please no more additional rules Collegeboard!